my life

i feel like i'm sitting in a corner , cold , listening to musiic
i feel so alone i hate my self cuz im short
but i think that i'm beautiful because evrywhere i go thers some boys who wanna go out with me
but i don't care about that ; all i want is to be like the thers im 17 ( almost 18 in 13 days )
i just wanna be tall like the other girl and feeling right cuz
im feeling so sad :'( because peaole always reminde me that i'm short
i know that i'm and i didn't made my self
and evryone who told me that im i really feel like i hate him and wanna shoot him or her

so  this is my life but it countain alot of sadness and happiness sometimes , illussion and tears

loneliness and sometimes feeling the most weird girl :s
so in the next i will writhe about the people i used to know
love stories
shcool stories

 home stories

and a lot of exiting things
=)
so i will be honest 100 %
i wanna feel free

he was my all , i loved him more than anything in the world
we were really happy together so that's what i think
he said so many times that he love me
i believed he lies
or may be his feeling just changed
i remember our first kiss
me and him we were just friends but we we was talking evryday
evrynight evrymoment and we see eachother a lot of times
so our firt kiss was awsome it was the first and the last one
he kissed me slowly and it was os sweet cuz i loooooved him
and then he told me to forget what happend i said yes but inside me
it was all what i think about
he made me so in love and after 4 days he text me and told me that i love you and i wanna be with you for ever and i will never leave you
i was so happy
may be the most happy girl in the world
so we're together
i felt so happy and afraid in the same time to lose him cuz me and my famile had to move somewhere else but in the same city
but far from him
so i told hiom that and he said never minde we're in the same city so it's not a probleme
he made me feel confortable
and atfer that i left
like 15 days we hadn't see each other
i was sitiing all alone in my new room and never go out
sitiing in the dark because he forget's me :'(
i hadn't recive any text from him
he forget all about me
ALL ; our first and only one sweet kiss
the way we talkd and enjoyed

...

i was so sad and feeling full of hate
cuz he put me over the clouds and let me down
it hurt !
so much , but i saw him again one more time just like that
i didn't know and neiter him he come up to me and we talked about what we had i didnt tell him why you left me all alone wfter your promises
he showd me that he loves me again but it was for o,ly one afternoon and he dispear again
with no calls no texts he left me again swiming in a cold dreams
i coould'nt breath without him

so after 3 month i was in another relation ship i likeed the boy
but i saw him again
we didn't talked
but after that he saw me
he coms evry day to my high school lookinking at me and smiling i was evry day out of school waitnig him
and he comes but never talk just looking at each other
i was always with a new boy
my friends =) he tough their was my bf
but after that i brok up with my bf
just to let him know that im empty for you
he has a face of an angel
i will never forget him
but now
im nhot in love with him
it's over